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» CHUCK HANSEN

» mako grew up alongside chuck hansen as the two shatterdome children to hero pilot fathers. this relationship started in a place of shared understanding, the both of them forced to deal with a huge amount of unresolved emotional trauma as the result of onibaba's and scissure's attacks. while their fathers' responsibilities kept them apart for long periods they were generally inseparable whenever housed under the same roof. their early relationship, into adolescence, was characterized by a sibling-like quality (rivalry mixed with a profound understanding and extreme, but never talked about after-the-fact, emotional vulnerability).

» before meeting raleigh, chuck was the only romantic outlet mako had ever had (wanted and kind of pursued) in her life. any other encounters she has had have been brief, superficial and on the whole have never been revisited after-the-fact. in addition to being the closest thing mako has ever had to a relationship (emotional or physical), chuck is the only sexual partner she has ever had.

» yeah that's right they were big fat virgins together until they weren't big fat virgins (only let's be real, they were still big fat virgins cause neither of them knew what they were doing).

» please note, use of words like "relationship" and "sexual" and "partner" are highly qualified considering chuck's own internal hurdles (which managed to only grow up around them more and more as they grew older).

» that said there was a period during adolescence, when their rivalry was strongest, when mako was convinced that she was in love with chuck. whether or not this was actually the case or if it was her emotional inexperience simply assigning incorrect labels to intense emotional investment is anyone's guess.

» chuck is the only person capable of making mako completely lose her reserve. their last huge blow-up (years past) resulted in a formal and extremely harsh reprimand from the marshal. mako also broke chuck's nose. they haven't exchanged more than a few sentences with one another in a single sitting since.

» though mako's emotions with regards chuck hansen are layered, complicated and occasionally contradictory, as an adult she continues to view him both as one of the best pilots the academy has ever produced as well as her only sibling. a sibling she has been sharply and irrevocably estranged from, but a sibling nevertheless. the strongest emotions associated with chuck in the drift are disappointment and loss. the strongest memories associated with chuck are their memories as children curled up in one of their bunks with the sheets pulled over their heads as chuck has one of his fits.

» although mako does not actively keep any of her memories or herself from raleigh in the drift, any memories of chuck as a child come with the understanding that he will never use these things against chuck (even if she thinks sometimes he deserves it).